Sometimes not moving gets you further.
It made me feel in control and that I was productive.weekends and holidays would be wake up, eat, gym for as long as I could go (wanting to eat later and not feel guilty),rush out to buy something or visit something or at least just Be somewhere other than at home,other than chill.
I used to live by the idea that stopping to chill and rest meant lazy,no life or boring. That everyday and every moment of life needed to be filled.
And I have found that sadly-I can't remember many of the holidays I've had, weekends or trips. I simply can't. Blurred into my past. No matter if it was Thailand Bali Italy or new York- I couldn't truly enjoy those times cause I wasn't truly there.i was already ahead of the hours days and moments.
This weekend- I sat, read, chilled, swam a little and talked to my neighbours. It felt like two days instead of 1 today. And I feel more relaxed than one weeks vacation.
Peace truly is a state of mind- being
Present isn't just a concept or an idea I've realised- its actually doing it.